here i am,
blogging in the library.
giving myself some chill time before i start mugging for the finance quiz later.
sigh.
i am trying to purge myself of all unhappy thoughts
and the only way i figured i can do it is to write it all down.
yep,
so i have one a half pages full of miniscule words of the tons of feelings i am jaded with now.
"i love you alot.
i really do.
but why am i feeling as if i am driving you away?""i don't know what is wrong with me.
some parts of my twisted mind is unhappy with the idea of me having some happiness injected in my life.
making me feel quarrelsome,
and wanting to complain about every little thing.
or many it's just me.
i feel happier wallowing."bleah.
after writing it down i really do feel much better.
fresh start,
and i hope i never find anything in common with anything i wrote.
i should be pursuing happiness.
not wallowing.
cause i have someone to pursue it with.
you have given me the greatest possible happiness.:)
